MKMMA 2017 – Week 3 – Relax and let go!!

“31.  Tension leads to mental unrest and abnormal mental activity of the mind; it produces worry, care, fear and anxiety.  Relaxation is therefore an absolute necessity in order to allow the mental faculties to exercise the greatest freedom.”

I have to say I really enjoyed this week’s lesson!!  I think this ‘run through’ of all the lessons has been even more enlightening!

“Let it go, Let it go…” (musical notes)

I’ve found myself stopping what I’m doing and taking deep breaths this week (outside of the sits), and just relaxing my muscles and ‘letting go’.  What a great exercise to reduce stress!  In doing so, I realize the level of stress I experience throughout the day, just over little, insignificant things.  I won’t go into my personal ailments, but I’m sure some of them are directly related to the ‘weight’ I carry on my shoulders.  Some stress we do bring on ourselves, like renovating our home, for instance, as is the current situation for me.  Knowing that the end result of these renovations will be so ‘worth it’ is my absolute focus.  Also, I have to say that I am very grateful that I have the means to undergo such a project.  Perhaps the previous edition of my DMP has something to do with this! 🙂

Really enjoying this session and feel that I am compounding the benefits from the previous two I’ve participated in.  And to think this is only the third week!  I’m ‘stoked’ about what the future holds!

Bring on week 4!!



MKMMA 2017 – Week 2 – Resisting the “Gravitational Pull”

It has been extremely challenging this week not to be drawn in to all the constant inundation of media reports surrounding the incident in Las Vegas on Sunday night.  Tragic as it was, I really had to ‘guard’ myself from being ‘pulled into’ all the repeated news coverage.  Even though I have chosen to not regularly listen to the radio or watch television, it was really hard not to hear repeated information just being out in public.  I remember one person commenting that they refused to look at a picture of the gunman, but instead focused on the faces of the victims.

Other than that, I have found The Master Key, Part Two to be a very enjoyable read this week.  So, so true in so many ways.  Especially in 28, where it states, “…and this law is the “Law of Attraction,” which is that Mind is creative, and will automatically correlate with its object and bring it into manifestation.”

I must finalize my DMP as I truly understand this to be a very important part of this whole process.  I’ll be writing that on my “chore” card this week!

MKMMA 2017 – Week 1 – Here we go, again!

As I sit down to type this blog I can’t help but feel like I’ve been ‘here’ before.  As true as that may be I realize that the “here” is a different place now than where “here” was 2 years ago, when I first took this course.  The main reason I feel that way is that “I” am different than I was when I started it back in 2015.  So, although I’m not where I ‘want’ to be, yet, I’m nowhere near where I was back then.  {Hopefully that makes sense…it does to me anyways, lol!}

Looking forward to ‘leaps and bounds’ this time through, as the foundation was laid the first time.

Feeling very grateful to be a part of this opportunity to grow and change!



Week 24 – The End? …or simply the Beginning?

The final “official” Blog post with the Master Key Experience…WOW, how far I’ve come!!

Although I would not give myself an “A” grade in the course, I am certainly very proud of myself for still being here.  A committment that was made waaaay back nearly six months ago…and…”I always keep my promises, Jan Ellis !!”  🙂

This week there has been a lot of focus on the life of my late Mother-In-Law, Jean Ellis.  We ‘celebrated’ her life with Prayers and a Catholic Funeral Mass and Internment at a Cemetery.  As time was spent preparing for all of this I have come to really realize what a wonderful person she was!!  Participating in writing her eulogy, with her husband and 5 (of 6) surviving children was a touching experience.  Talking of memories we all recalled of her and the great woman and Mother she was.  I can truly say that (from my perspective) her life had real ‘Purpose’ and she gave and received a tremendous amount of LOVE.  So here I am searching for the “meaning of life” and it has been right here all along…..LOVE!!  Just give (and receive) LOVE…Truly and from the heart!!

Can’t tell you how long it took to get through that paragraph!  Her death is still very ‘fresh’.  In fact today I had a “Mom – moment” and talked about making a print of a recent photo and giving it to her to pass on to another family member.  I had to stop myself…and then ‘broke down’ for a bit.  You see she was the central “hub” of the family.  A real time of adjustment is ahead for all of us!

Back to the course…

Anyone and everyone who has the opportunity to participate in the MKE would be crazy not to. That IS my opinion, and, yes I AM an expert…lol !!  I learned that some people actually take it more that once.  When I first heard about this I thought it was very strange and somehow ‘unnecessary’, but the more I think about it at the end here, it sounds like a great idea!  I think that I would be even more committed to the exercises and would strive for a ‘letter grade’ much closer to an “A”.

All in all I’d have to say this has been an amazing “Journey of Self Discovery” and I do love the “Gal In The Glass” more and more each day!!

I’ve only just begun!!


Week 23 – Master of My Emotions…not so much today!

Today, unfortunately, I cannot say I have been “Master of My Emotions”

This has been an extremely difficult day to control my emotions as I am currently mourning the loss of my Mother-In-Law, who passed away peacefully, at home, this afternoon.  She was such a wonderful woman, in so many ways, who I can (oddly) say I have known and loved all of my life.  Just feeling kind of numb right now…

“Inside me is a wheel, constantly turning from sadness to joy….” (from Scroll VI)

Bring on the Joy!!



Week 22A – “Silence Is Golden”

I decided early in the week to do a ‘mini-retreat’ yesterday (at home) during the day when the rest of my family was at work and school.

Upon the initial decision to do this 2 thoughts came to mind… One was a song I remembered from my childhood “Silence Is Golden” (Frankie Valli & The Four Seasons)  I searched it on YouTube and realized that I didn’t really know the lyrics to it and had I when I was young I probably wouldn’t have understood them anyhow.  The melody was definitely in my brain, although I’m quite certain I haven’t heard it in a number of years.  Second thought I had was a memory of a game my 2 brothers and I used to play near the end of our dinner meal.  It went like this…Someone would shout out “Silence, until I say ‘no silence’…Silence”.  The object was for everyone to remain silent (obviously), and the first person to break the silence received some sort of ‘punishment’.  I’m not really sure what that was.  Or maybe the other two just made fun of them, I don’t remember.  I hadn’t thought of that silly game in a very long time.  It did bring a smile to my face and warmed my heart in the recollection of it.

Now for the ‘retreat’.  It started at 9am and I was very unsure how I would possibly not go ‘stir- crazy’ spending the day in silence.  I sat on the couch in our Family room.  Okay, so i soon realized that the house is not that quiet without a few ‘adjustments’.  The mantel clock in the livingroom had to have to battery removed so it didn’t ‘chime’ every 15 minutes.  The clock on the mantel in the family room also needed to have to battery removed as it went ‘tick-tock’.  Okay, so getting there… Some things I could not silence, such as the storm happening outside.  The rain was pounding down on the deck out back and also against the windows.  The wind was also howling quite loudly.  Apparently I cannot stop the wind (lol).  I thought maybe the power would go out…that wouldn’t have mattered (lol).    Also, aircraft flew overhead from time to time.  One cat on my lap was purring 🙂  I have to say that all of these things were definitely more noticeable than they have been at any other time.  About and hour and a half in I started to get really ‘bored’.  That’s when I decided to read my GS.  I remembered Mark saying we could do our regular readings if we wanted.  I made the decision to read the intro (story) and each of the first 6 scrolls.  That was amazing.  I kind of remembered the story, but it was nice to have a ‘refresher’ as it has been almost 6 months since I read it.  All the scrolls were like ‘old friends’…such an easy read.  Each one felt like it was only a week or two since we read them.   It’s really hard to believe it’s been as long as it has.  Anyways, after I finished them I have to admit I fell asleep for an hour and a half.  I had such vivid dreams….not all good, but so very ‘real’.  After awakening I made lunch and settled back down for a couple more hours before my children returned home.  When they did arrive I advised them that I was not speaking until 5pm.  They were really good at obliging.  My daughter (who is 17) was very inquisitive as to what this was all about.  I think she thought I was ‘losing it’, lol.  I filled her in the best I could.

My next (and real) ‘silence retreat’ will be done away somewhere where I can completely “unplug” and for a full 48 to 72 hours.  I am working on such an event happening in April or May.  This will definitely require some planning.

Looking forward to spending some more time with ‘me, myself, and I’


Week 22 – Are we “there”, yet?

Are we “there”, yet?

Interesting title that came to me yesterday as I was giving serious thought to this week’s blog post.

The very short answer is “NO”!!  Truth be told I am not even sure where “there” is at the moment….So, how do I know when I get there (lol)??  I realize that my DMP needs some ‘serious‘ revision.  It needs to change…because I’ve changed!!

I don’t know if I expected that at the ‘end’ of this MKE I would be “there“, but I definitely know that will not be the case seeing as we only have a handful of weeks to go.  I do, however, know that I am a lot further along my “desired” (at this point) journey than had this course not entered my life.  And for that I will be forever grateful, as I think I’ve mentioned before 🙂

I have not yet ‘carved out’ time to do a retreat in silence, but am working towards such a time happening in the next month or two.  When the idea was first ‘suggested’ on the webby last week my initial (internal) response was “How can I possibly do that…With the family and all of my ‘obligations’?”  Within moments, though, I have to say that I was able to turn that around and instead focus my thoughts on figuring out a way for it TO happen!  I have not come up with a concrete plan, yet, but have a couple of ‘strong’ possibilities in mind.  I hope to achieve it by the end of April.  Looking forward to it!!